Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I am sorry

I have been lost in thought, and heavy in heart. With my best friend gone so far way for a while and the death of my sister in law, I am afraid I am not my self, or at least the self I want to be right now.

I know the plan, and that the Lord is in charge. But distance in any fashion is still distance. I ache for my brother and long to hold my mother, someone who knows me better than I know myself. So I am sorry I have been so distant.

3 comments:

Maryjane - The Beehive Cottage said...

Christi, I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your darling sister-in-law. Such a great loss. She looks and sounds like she was a real jewel. How blessed we are to have the gospel in our lives and knowing you will all see her again. I am sorry for your heavy heart for your brother and best friend. If it helps in anyway, I am just bringing my little head out of a major grieving proccess of three years. Time heals Christi. I promise! I was told this three years ago and couldn't even imagine being myself again. I am starting to sparkle again! I will pray for you sweetie! Bless your heart!

Hugs,
Maryjane

tina said...

sorry about your loss.... we all go through times where we just need to stay a little distant and just "be".
xoxo

The Tanners said...

It has been a quite a while since I visited your site. I haven't seen this post before. I love you too, sweetie and miss you. It is so nice to see you here and on facebook, and your emails. We have been in Nova Scotia almost three months now. Christmas will surely be different without you. Christmas will surely be different period, in another country.
I am so grateful for you, and your love. Mom (Best Friend)